Spirituality Information - Journey In The Fields Of Forever ( Part 82 )
Listen to the mystery in sound,
Focus on the beauty of a flower.
Acknowledge that we are nothing but a moment.
The air will take hold of what is left behind and all I am is silence.
I cannot find peace, not even in the reflection of my own being;
Only chaos surrounds me now, And this field has become my new home.
Gaze around you as your eyes explore each blade of grass and tree for something new. The colors change from browns and greens to blues and purples when you look closely enough at everything around you from a different perspective. This is only your second time in this place and you still feel like you haven't even begun to understand it yet. You nod to yourself as you decide that this is the perfect spot to begin your meditation.
The soft sound of wind brushes past your ear, as it did a few moments ago. Your eyes follow the air that sings past your face and out into the unknown, never letting go of the soft sound echoing around you.
The wind picks up speed as the soft song becomes a scream of the wind and you close your eyes, listening deeply to this new found voice. The wind continues to pick up speed and your heart begins beating faster as it reminded you of what you are supposed to be doing. Breathe as the air rushes in your lungs as you begin to feel yourself relaxing even more clear into the soft grass.
You open your eyes and notice suddenly that while you had stayed still, in meditation, you had unintentionally moved closer to a large tree. You let out a small sigh of relief as everything returns back to normal, right before the sound of an animal caught up in fear. The animals' sound of fear seems to be growing louder and louder as if it were coming towards you. You can almost hear the animal's foot steps along with its shaking body as it continues running from a certain fate.
You sit up, looking around, trying to find the animal that is so terrified of something that it is running from an inevitable death. You wonder where the animal could have gone; maybe it's just hidden behind another tree or bush, waiting for whatever was chasing it to pass by. And as you look closer and deeper into what is left of your surroundings, you notice more trees than there were before; all spaced out in intervals not very far apart from each other. This could be an animal running into them, you think to yourself as you get up from the ground.
You walk towards a tree and notice that it turns out to be more than just a tree and you are surprised, but still walk towards it anyways. As you try to decide which way this new unknown path should go, your thoughts wander back to your meditation in the field of flowers surrounding you. You feel yourself being pulled back into the field by a gentle breeze and the breeze feels like it is carrying something that would make a normal person feel uncomfortable. The colors of everything are changing again; from blues and purples to greens, yellows, and reds. You can hear the gentle sound of the animals still running in fear but it seems to have turned into a different type of vibration, as if it were something that you didn't know.
You walk down what you assume is the path that you went down before, as you begin feeling yourself getting lost once again. As your feet touch the soft ground below you, your eyes follow the soft grass around everywhere as opposed to watching your path ahead. Your heart begins beating faster again and you sense something want to tell you something; maybe making you feel uneasy or afraid of what is around the next bend. You begin running as fast as you can, and you try to not look around at anything else other than the path in front of you. And as you run, it is almost like a dream that feels like it is taking forever. You know what is happening but everything moves so slowly and hardly changes.
And just when you thought that you were finally going to get out of this place, you start to feel yourself moving forward again! You let out a scream but only the sound of your voice echoes back to your ears. You keep trying to convince yourself that everything's alright, and remind yourself that this is only a dream. But if it was just a dream, then this time around you should be able to wake up and feel safe again. Something pulls you towards the wall of trees surrounding you as everything seems to move at a faster pace. As you feel yourself getting closer, you can hear the screams of animals dying all around you as if they were all being tortured by something deadly. You continue running into the trees and try to ignore the sounds but it seems like every turn in this place leads to a different path that continues going forward at an even faster pace.
And just when you thought it couldn't possibly get any worse, the sounds of screaming and screaming animals continue to grow louder and louder. You can almost hear the screams of your heart as every single beat is louder than before. You feel your feet getting stuck into something and you start to fall, as if you were dreaming again for a third time. Everything in this place seems so surreal that you don't even know what's real anymore; nothing around you is what it seems to be like, or if the world has even changed at all since you woke up after your first meditation session in this field.
And as you look down, you notice that the grass is now replaced by rocky terrain as you begin to attempt to regain your balance. Your heart recognizes this terrain and remembers what these stones mean. The sound of animals screaming gets louder and louder and the noise makes your body shake all around you as if someone were placing their hands on every part of your body inside out. You feel like something gentle is trying to give you a hug but at the same time, it's eating away at your insides from the outside in.
You jump up from the ground, running away from this type of feeling that is trying to wrap itself around everything inside you; making it feel like it's alive and wanting to stay right where it is. As you run, the ground begins to shake and curve into a ball shape as if it were created from something that was extremely hot and melted down. You can barely feel yourself standing on the ground and it feels like you are standing on top of your own heart. The sound of screaming animals begins to fade away into a noise that sounds like wind. And as you look above your head, you notice why everything has changed and why it felt like everything was being pushed down onto the ground; there's a star with what seems to be another planet orbiting around it!
And just as fast as this scene has popped up in front of you; suddenly disappears into thin air and nothing is left but darkness.